How is my heart, little darling? You didn’t meant to get so mad.

Yeah, right!

To your freaking shit face (not anyone here).

If you wanna throw our guitar away, GO AHEAD. Makes everything easier for us. Thank you very much. You have totally made us lose interest in playing the guitar.

You probably don’t understand anything about school stress since you’re not in the modern age anymore so you don’t even understand at all. Just put yourself into our shoes and see how we feel. You would be complaining so don’t make up all that BS that you never complained in your life.

If you wanna throw the guitar away, it’s your choice. Really. I don’t even care because I hate to admit this but I HATE PRACTICING. I think I’ve mentioned that before and you know it already so I’m not going into details again.

Why are you doing this to yourself? Getting yourself hated. Is that what you really want or are you acting retarded? I’m sorry but that’s really the truth! You like getting on everyone’s nerves and scolding everyone for unnecessary things.

You make me despise the thought of practicing the guitar and make me HATE IT HATE IT HATE IT HATE IT SOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH. You keep reminding us that we are putting in no effort. I mean, we ARE but shouldn’t you be supporting us to keep us going? Isn’t that what you want?? Do you really hate us like that?

If you’re so impatient, then go learn it in a few WEEKS then. I seriously had enough of YOU too if you’re so frigging annoyed with us. Idiot.

It’s really your choice to throw that guitar away. You can even give it to your other favourite children since you love them so much. Ew. Seriously, I HATE spoilt children. So you can go and pamper them all you want.

Not learning songs?

ASK MY TEACHER THEN. WE’RE LEARNING BUT YOU DON’T WANT TO ACCEPT THE FACT THAT WE ARE PLAYING MUSIC. IT MIGHT NOT BE MUSIC TO YOUR EARS BUT IT IS IN THE GUITAR WORLD YOU’RE NOT IN. YOU DON’T EVEN UNDERSTAND ANY THEORIES OR WHATEVER. IT’S JUST THE SAME AS TELLING US THAT WE DON’T STUDY. HAVE YOU HEARD OR SEEN US? YOU ONLY COME BACK AT THE WRONG TIME SO too bad BUSTER.

You’re not only making us hate playing the guitar. It’s making us hate YOU. YOU are crushing my dreams. YOU are putting us down. YOU are telling us how shitty we are. YOU are the complaining one. YOU are the one without patience. YOU are the smarty pants. YOU are everything that’s RIGHT but not WRONG.

Everyone makes mistakes but you make it sound like you don’t. You don’t care about how much time we need to accept the fact that we’re going to school. Do you care about all these things? Do you even know what’s happening? Asking us now is a bit too late so you better keep the questions all for your “lovely favourite children”.

You praise others but do you praise US? No. It’s like we’re not connected or anything. You don’t even understand a thing about how we feel and how everything is developing. You don’t know we are practicing hard so that we can be the musicians of this place. You don’t wanna hear sweet music coming from our house, THAT’S FINE.

I’m proud to admit that I’m forgetting about that acoustic black Takamine guitar in that shop? You know that? Why? Because I really knew it from the VERY START. I made a mistake of joining guitar lessons and I made a big mistake of falling in love with that pretty guitar that my favourite musicians have which I will never ever get it. I already knew it. See? I’m not so stupid.

I knew, the chances of getting that guitar was 0%, seeing how much support everyone is giving us. I told myself everyday, “Keep dreaming on,” whenever you put us down. So I did. I’m only 10% away from getting that but it’s dropped and that’s the fact. I’m admitting that I’m accepting it.

Wanna drop us out from that class?

Fine with me. But I don’t know if you can take that when your heart shatters when everyone is boasting about children playing the guitar and giving advice that a child should learn how to play an instrument because it relaxes the soul and comforts every environmental thing. You’ll be thumping your chest as hard as you can, banging your fists on the door, making a hole on a chair, whatever but all I know is when that happens, I’ll be rocking with laughter on a rocking chair while rock music is playing.

Oh yeah. You also don’t have the right to scold other people who have nothing to do with this. You can’t put the blame on them because you don’t even know the full story. What if party one is disobeying party two? That wouldn’t be fair to party two because you are pointing fingers here and there and saying abracadabra.

Apologies because I couldn’t keep my promise. I can’t be a musician anymore. I can’t let my dreams come true and I’ll have to choose a different path now. I’ll be blinking jealously at people boasting about how they can play instruments. I guess I’ll learn the hard way to shut my mouth and smile. If these walls could talk they would have so much to say. I’m sorry I won’t be filling the house up with my favourite songs and everything.

It’s something that you’re born into and I just don’t belong.
No, I don’t
I’m just a no-class beat-down fool
And I will always be that way
I might as well enjoy my life and watch the stars play

AU REVOiR, DREAMS! *blows kisses*