tell me where have you been
The passion for guitars had completely died, I think.
Call me a sadist for repeating this a hundred times but what do you think when one receives pressure? :\
The guy's a screw up, an idiot, a whatever-you-call-it. I hate it. I hate everything about it. I'm not even looking forward to those rubbishy lessons anymore.
Everything about him - the way he acts, looks, says - screams, "Hope these noobies keep trying until I'm a billionare!!!"
Every week is a different thing, every week is a different chord. He also claims that he taught us something he didn't. Not to mention, our CD of favourite songs has probably been copied and given out to his buddies and also his favourite songs now.
That's what we get.. huh? It's been TEN.WHOLE.MONTHS. No, not ten weeks. Months. Why? We would've quit months ago if not for the doubting, the thinking, the hesitation and everything that wastes more and more of our time.
I think Twitter is more my style since I haven't been updating in a while. But Twitter? Yeah.
Oh and notice the 'guitar' tag growing tinier by the day.
We're not willing to try ourselves either so the story goes on! So the time flies on! So the saliva is being used until no more left! So the pressure and stress continues! So the hatred repeats! And of course, life goes on as well!
Screw it. Get a life.
i’m sorry but this is urgent!
Wonderful! I just went to check some fan sites and I'm sorry to say that I'll have to post some pictures.
looooooooook at seb's shirt and hair. so adorable. that shirt looks like pierre's..
OVERSIZED SHIRT
AHEM WHO IS THIS? i would cut out her face definitely if i'm not that nice.
haha! be my guest to guess who isn't there; pierre's new role model shirt looks nice. gotta love the green.
We heard Save You on the radio today.
Oh my God. I dreamt of Josh (?!?!) last night and it's all because of Taco! She said something about him then I don't know how she got it hammered into my head because I didn't think of him after that. I dreamt that I watched two movies with him in it and it felt like years. Maybe because I was sad we ditched the Las Vegas book yesterday.
The guitar lesson was a disaster. I'm just gonna find all the tutorials I can, try them out and get the hell out of that drain hole. Shouldn't guitar teachers be patient with their students?! He was like, "You didn't even do this at all!" Don't need to higher your damn voice, wuss. We wouldn't be there if tutorial videos came out in December. Lame. We spent like forty minutes practicing that fingering for One Republic's Stop And Stare.
I don't care what I'm saying here or get scolded. We obviously wasted a whole lot of ink printing out those chords because he just creates his own just because he can play by ear. *SNEERS* He said we would be playing those hard stuff in the future. The future is now?! We should be learning the easy one first then those chords which split your fingers into two parts. I can't even hold it. My fingers!! And you blame me?! I'll smash your stupid Takamine for all I care.
Taco, please please please please agree to practicing the tutorials because I hate that stinking place...
pretending that she still loves me
Aww. I'm kinda sad because I'm not the first to add Melee or Ricky to my Twitter. It's sad because they won't notice you anymore. Like SP. What do you have to do to get them to add you? Spam add me? Disappointed...
Today is guitar lesson day. I'm nervous because we don't know what he's picked out from all those songs. Probably the last one we wanna learn playing like One Republic, possibly? Nooooo! I hope something spicy like SP songs. Haha! Time To Say Goodbye. Crazy chords. And we know it's never simple, never easy.
I feel like posting some lyrics. Totally true.
"Jump" by SP (:
Jump!
I don't wanna wake up today
Cause everyday's the same
And I'd been waiting so long
For things to change
I'm sick of this town
Sick of my job
Sick of my friends 'cause everyone's jaded
Sick of this place, I wanna break free
I'm so frustrated, I just wanna
Jump! (Jump!)
Don't wanna think about tomorrow (Jump!)
I just don't care tonight
I just wanna jump (Jump!)
Don't wanna think about my sorrow
Let's go
Forget your problems
I just wanna jump
I don't wanna wake up one day
And find out it's too late
To do all the things I wanna do
So I'm gonna pack up my bags
I'm never coming back
'Cause the years are passing by
And I'm wasting all my ti-ti-time
Sick of this house
Sick of being broke
Sick of this town, that's bringing me down
I'm sick of this place, I wanna break free,
I'm so frustrated, I just wanna jump
Jump! (Jump!)
Don't wanna think about tomorrow (Jump!)
I just don't care tonight,
I just wanna jump (Jump!)
Don't wanna think about my sorrow
Let's go
Forget your problems
I just wanna jump
I just wanna jump
I can't take it anymore [x3]
Forget tomorrow, I just wanna jump (Jump!)
Don't wanna think about tomorrow (Jump!)
I just don't care tonight,
I just wanna jump (Jump!)
Don't wanna think about my sorrow
Let's go
Forget your problems
It's time to let them go
Forget tomorrow, I just wanna jump (Jump!)
I just wanna jump
Au revoir, dreams!
you hate the way your life turned out to be
Hearing that we'll be quitting soon, I don't wanna be a dropout who just dropped out and ended everything. No. I feel determined to continue, lessons or not.
Back to reading stuff on guitar websites... I'm gonna regret doing this but maybe, just maybe, it'll work and knock some sense into my head. I have no idea if a miracle will just happen like that but I hope it will.
Why am I doing this?
Once we quit guitar lessons, we'll never be able to go back because the teacher might not be so nice to you. He'll probably ask you why you wanna join again and if you don't come up with an answer, he'll never let go. Yeah, so I guess that's why I'm doing this for the sake of not wasting money and wasting our time. I don't want to hate guitars for the rest of my life because I was a drop out.
Yes, maybe you don't care if you quit or not but I strongly disagree with dropping out then just leaving it there. What will the guitar do after that then? Sit around and rot? Get blamed for being such a stupid thing? Won't you miss it now and then? Even if you don't, just a little? Slowly, you'll think back and wish you didn't stop. You worked for something you wanted to do badly but not hard enough and you just quit like that?
I think I don't want that to happen to me. I'm still dreaming of that sleek and black, acoustic and rhythm Takamine guitar in Seb's hands and that Fender guitar with the delicious looking logo on the headstock. I'm still wondering when I'll be able to slide my hand up and down the guitar neck smoothly like Jeff and playing songs I love to listen to and me, making nice music with that acoustic guitar we have.
Is that what I really want until I don't want to let go or let it be another wasted effort?
Many people may find it easy to learn from the internet. No, I'm not them. I don't understand what the hell is going on and what everyone is trying to tell me. I'm planning to re-read them. I have to understand it or I'll get more pressure. I find this harder than studying, actually. There's so much research to do and so many things we have to learn to understand.
Well, if the teacher had put more effort, we would be continuing and playing songs like a genius. Isn't that why teachers are here? To help their students master what they want to do and grant their wishes? No. Newt isn't. He's here to pretend to teach us and get the money. I don't know what he's doing on Earth because all I know, he's acting like a grain of rice sitting there. He's not here to help his students or teach them something. He doesn't care if they have interests or anything because he's already gotten his wish. He can play the guitar anytime he wants while changing chords swiftly and play it while looking at the sky.
He starts the lesson late and ends it ten minutes before the right time. What does he really do in class? He asks us to practice whatever he taught us, the week before. He leaves the classroom and goes out to chat and laugh with his friends while we're inside playing the same thing over and over for twenty minutes. He comes back in to make sure we got it right then he continues to the next lesson. He teaches whatever it is until we get it. He asks us to practice the new thing and goes out. He comes back with a big puff of smoke which immediately stinks up the whole room, suffocating both of us. He corrects our mistakes and jeers at my fingers which aren't curling in the right way. Sometimes, he'll bring in his own guitar and show off his stupid skills while we're practicing. Yeah, we know you're so god damn smart already. He asks us to pack up because it's already time. We look at the clock and it's always five or ten minutes before the class even ends.
Don't even bother asking us to look for another teacher because there aren't any who will accept two students at a time. They say our levels are different. Right. That reminds me of art class last time. We were told to sit away from each other because we couldn't be sharing paint forever. When I heard that, the first word that came to my mind was - NO.
Sure, I hate practicing but that doesn't mean I don't like playing it. It just sickens me to think about practicing and all that stress everyone is putting on us. The world is getting heavier with all that. I like playing but I will like it even more if I can play songs. And yes, I know what everyone is gonna tell me after that. I know everyone is desperate for us to play songs but......
I don't even think I'll read all those stuff again since nobody really cares though I would love to play a song for you if I could. I don't think we'll let it go like that. Though, honestly, I don't think anyone gives a shiz.. it'll probably become another wasted effort. I think I'll just keep dreaming on.
Every day is the worst day ever.
how is your heart little darling?
I'm not quite sure what to say because I'm dreading school very, very, very much. More than you think you know.
Oh well, tomorrow we have guitar class. Last week was a holiday - thank God for that - so we had to practice more in case we forgot. I must say we practiced more than I actually thought we did. Mom says we should quit after next month since we aren't learning anything new and at the speed we're going, by the time we're 40, we might only be able to play ONE SONG. That's grrrreat.
Besides that, a party is on our agenda tomorrow. A kid's birthday party. 
Um, I think we're past the kiddie balloon games and toy cars stage. Waaay past but Dad says we must go. Okay, whatever.
We had a hard time looking for a present for the boy but in the end found a pretty big and decent looking box of games for a decent price. We should wrap it soon.
Okay, at least there's gonna be food. I know you think we're greedy but what actually can you do during a kid's birthday party? Play with them? Nuh-uh. We ain't joining in on pin-the-freaking-donkeys-tail or whatever. It's so not us. So whenever we attend parties like that we only look forward to the food. Caterers, I hope.
Mmm..
After tomorrow, will be SUNDAY. Day before SCHOOL.
Oh, joy to the world. God save the queen.. and me.
the air i breathe and a place to rest my head
Forget Takamine. Forget Fender. Forget Gibson. Forget guitars. Forget lessons. Forget strumming. Forget plucking. Forget chords. Forget picks. Forget songs. Forget practice. Forget everything. Forget anything.
Yeah, maybe all this should never have happened. I'm starting to wonder if I'm regretting every moment of this.
"That was quick! Continue somemore!"
There you go
You're always so right
It's all a big show
It's all about you.
I'm sick of getting forced to practice every stupid day. Practicing whenever you feel like it normally works. If it isn't forced on me, I would put much more effort to it. Try practicing yourself then if you think it's so shizzing easy, god dammit. Wow. Even if I played for 45 minutes, no one would've noticed. Push on and on. Even Newt said one hour can already kill.
"OH WHY CAN'T YOU PLAY SONGS YET?"
You think you know
What everyone needs
You always take time
To criticize me.
Oh, haha. Why can't you then? You think you can learn everything in one stupid month? Do you just start by playing songs??? Chords, strumming, plucking. You know all that and start playing songs in the first lesson? Right. You're only half way through the chords and you'll be playing songs like Brad Paisley. Get a freaking life.
"It's getting louder and louder. If you put more effort to......"
It seems like everyday
I make mistakes
I just can't get it right.
It's like I'm the one
You love to hate
But not today.
BLAH BLAH BLAH. I can't hear you. Firstly, don't tell me what to do if you aren't my frigging teacher because you don't know what I'm learning. Even if you are, you should just twist your language into something better than that shiz that's coming out from your mouth. What if I'm learning to play from high to low? Do you even know about that? And secondly, I will put more effort if you stop pestering me like some stupid idiot. I'll do that if you're not gonna force the stupid practice shiz. Lastly, if you don't know about picks, then I suggest you...
Shut up, shut up, shut up
Don't wanna hear it
Get out, get out, get out
Get out of my way
Step up, step up, step up
You'll never stop me
Nothing you say today
Is gonna bring me down
"CAN YOU PLAY? CAN YOU PLAY ALREADY?"
There you go
You never ask why
It's all a big lie
Whatever you do
You think you're special
But I know, and I know
And I know, and we know
That you're not
What the hell do you mean? Why does everyone keep asking us that, huh? We're attending guitar lessons. We're learning to play. Have you even played a guitar before? No, so cut the crap. You don't even understand what shiz is going on in the learning guitar life thing. Do you think your precious fingers are gonna be perfect during the whole thing? No. Guitar strings dig lines into your fingers and tear your skin, leaving blisters and making the tips of your fingers throb. Do you know anything about strumming? No? Guitar picks have three different types. Soft, medium, hard. Unfortunately, I have a hard pick and I choose to play loudly since you keep denying you didn't hear me practice. Do you know anything about plucking? You use your right or left hand and get them ready under the strings. Thumb for the bass and the other fingers for the lower three. You also have to leave your fingernails long if you don't wanna hurt your fingers. It's optional.
"Why don't you get the chords from the internet?"
You're always there to point
Out my mistakes
And shove them in my face
It's like I'm the one
You love to hate
But not today
What? You think I'm retarded or something? I've already tried that. Not everyone has the same theory. Some are different, some are not. Even if I do, it doesn't say how long or how many times you have to pluck or strum it. Yes, that leads to reading tabs. I can't read tabs. I already tried to learn how to. I already did that before you even said anything. How long was that? Hmm.. let me see. FOUR MONTHS AGO? I can't read stupid guitar tabs. I already tried. All I got was this huge headache from reading from the screen. I didn't even get what the site was trying to tell me.
So shut up, shut up, shut up
Don't wanna hear it
Get out, get out, get out
Get out of my way
Step up, step up, step up
You'll never stop me
Nothing you say today
Is gonna bring me down
Is gonna bring me down
No, don't call this a bad post. It's a true post. I'm telling you what I'm feeling, what you don't know and what you think you know.
Will never bring me down
It's the same as studying. If you force yourself to study, what will you get out of it? Same results. Duh.
Don't tell me who I should be
And don't try to tell me what's right for me
Don't tell me what I should do
I don't wanna waste my time
I'll watch you fade away
Aside from that, I found out I have a cereal box as my head. They call my head square so I have to cut a freaking shiz square haircut. Great. Doesn't that sound great to you? Congratulations! Send me a hug? Ok, great then. Go to school as a freak with a box on my head. Great way to start a new year. Do you need to measure my square head? 150x150? 350x350? Oh my God. I rather shave my head bald like Britney for God's sake. Being a guy sounds good right now.
So shut up, shut up, shut up
Don't wanna hear it
Get out, get out, get out
Get out of my way
Step up, step up, step up
You'll never stop me
Nothing you say today
Is gonna bring me down
My brain is gonna burst from my square meal head. Ever heard of that game? Square Meal by Nitrome. Not my type of game now but great pixel drawing thingy. So, let's call my head, Square Meal from now on then. Anyway, I'm getting really annoyed with this hissing about practicing. Square Meal feels like bursting.
So shut up, shut up, shut up
Don't wanna hear it
Get out, get out, get out
Get out of my way
Step up, step up, step up
You'll never stop me
Nothing you say today
Is gonna bring me down
Goodnight, goodnight, goodnight, goodnight, goodnight, goodnight. Hope that things work out alright.
Bring me down
(shut up, shut up, shut up)
Won't bring me down
(shut up, shut up, shut up)
Bring me down
(shut up, shut up, shut up)
Won't bring me down
Shut
up,
shut
up,
shut
up
when you’re on a holiday..
Last guitar lesson for this month.
Another wasted effort of practicing. I beginning to think that practicing is just a waste of time.
I'm getting really worried about my C chord..? It isn't working very well. Newt keeps shifting my fingers for me. God, I hate that because my whole hand will become stiff and unnatural. Why? Because my wrist isn't bending the right way? Because my stupid fingers aren't as long as his? Because my fingers will have terribly deep lines in them if I press hard enough?
I was okay before that. And no. This isn't about how I become worse if I skip a few days of practicing. Maybe because strumming blocks the whole dead string sound out. Now, we're learning plucking for a while. So the book says. Maybe because I was being such a smartypants back then. 
Whatever..
How many weeks of adjusting my fingers and acting like I don't practice will there be? I just hate it. I hate it so much. I totally dislike plucking. I don't like it as much as strumming. Call me a sore loser or whatever you call it. This challenge is probably the hardest. I left long fingernails for no reason.
My fingers are starting to look like Newt's because some skin tore. They're pink and feel like the first time I pressed the strings. They feel numb... The lines were unusually deep today. Didn't feel exactly right. My wrist hurts.
No matter how many times I adjusted my fingers and pressed hard, same answer. I feel like an idiot. Like Daniel Craig as James Bond in Casino Royale when he was trying to give the Bond girl a CPR. Didn't work out.
Haha. I know, I know what everyone will say. They'll tell me to practice harder and more. They'll be like in-your-face for not practicing for a few days in a row. Which leads them to congratulating me for my stupidity.
I honestly, seriously feel like giving up after today. Wasted effort hurts, you know.
Okay, whatever. Just expressing my feelings about today. Don't call me emo or loser or tard then.
thee lesson
Boring. Lame. Retarded. Idiotic. Stupid.
Let's see. What did we learn today? The same old thing last week. That's so lame. Because we got it wrong. Whatever. At least my fingers don't hurt anymore. Ha ha.
We forgot some of the chords though. I need to refresh my memory. Retarded teacher. So what if I get so many wrong? $@^^@ ^#^^%% #$^@#% $^$#^#$ ^#$%@# $!$!#$! @#$#@% #%#%. What's with the stupid angry act? He better quit being like a stupid cow. 
Did he just wake up or something? What's with the awful hair, full of loops or whatever?? He should also quit stinking up the whole room because it's really disgusting. Eat some Mentos or something, please! He just opens the door, comes in and the room immediately smells.
Also, does he know what he's talking about, half the time? Honestly. He suddenly asked if we finished replacement. Huh??? We were like what replacement? Why does he keep asking if we brought a CD? I don't get what he's talking about. Surprising he didn't ask what number class this is. Good.
He's a stupid show off. As usual. Brought in a TAKAMINE guitar. Except it was brown. Doesn't look good but THE BRAND DEFINITELY LOOKS GOOOOOOOOD!!! I WANT ONE. AAAAAAAAAAAAAH!
I didn't know such a place have branded guitar stuff. Like the Gibson and Epiphone guitar strings. If I had known that big triangle shaped pick was a Fender pick, I would've chosen it. I should really start a guitar pick collection. I only have one. Proud to admit it! 
Except the picks there don't even have any brands. That sucks a lot.
HOPEFULLY WE WILL LEARN QUICKLY NEXT WEEK.
sixth of december
Finally SP's tour has ended!!!
I can't wait for Pierre to start writing more songs. Hopefully, they'll release their upcoming album soon. The sooner, the better.
I'm also very in love with the pictures they post on SP fan sites. So nice. Don't ask me which. I have too many.
Hopefully, nice album and single covers for their next album. And more pictures of them. Yeah, man. That's something to die for.
And I hope David's sister is getting better too. 
He's so sweet to his sister! Skipped a show and asked everyone to visit her. Haha. Aw. Pierre is as sweet too. He dedicated the song Save You to David.
After seeing Seb and Jeff play, I feel so jealous. Haha! Like I can't play anymore because I'm just a noob tard trying to play a guitar, stupidly.
Anyways... today is guitar lesson day. It better be good. I'm gonna $%@(& slap those noisy people if they laugh like idiots again.
Back to the next good news. I heard Greenday (or do you type it out as Green Day?) is releasing a new album next year too!!! OMG? It's been such a long time since American Idiot. Another countdown for me.
Good point. I should make a countdown for 2009. Should I? That sounds stupid though. With 25 more days left.. New Year's Eve is the best time of the year. Yeah, yeah, yeah.
moving along
Should we do that for our guitar lessons?
Newt wasn't much help yesterday. All he did was start the class late, ask us to practice what we learned last week, practice the 'choke' thing and end the class early. End of story. Half the time, he was outside, laughing with the other people and playing with his damn handphone. Sure, he's a pro but other people have their dreams too. What a person.
I really want to quit this class and learn at home, rather than get asked to do the same thing until the end of the class. Problem is, I don't understand stuff like scales and reading tabs.. Yesterday, I spent 30 minutes, reading about how to read tabs but failed. 
Everytime I try to read the lessons, I feel like giving up everything. All this is helping me lose inspiration. I feel like that Kaiser Chiefs single called Everyday I Love You Less And Less. I'm stuck in a world of confusion now. Am I learning the right thing or am I just wasting my time?
Ask me to learn online? I can't! I don't understand all that stuff. I don't understand what the people are saying. Yesterday, I read some of the lessons. Not helping, at all.. Wake me up when this whole thing ends.
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