Spuddy Buddies

i need to find some peace

I really hope I do, next week! I didn't join some activity for sch%%l and I'm probably the only one. Oops! I can't say that I'm not afraid that I'll get called up. I am and that's a bad sign. I don't really care at some times, though. It's just some stupid activity but it's a must. Blah blah blah! Why should I join if I'm not gonna put in any effort or even go? Kick me out of sch**l, even better!!!

Everyone is a scaredy cat so they quickly join it but I didn't get to because of one thing. That really sucks. You know? I feel very left out. My fr13nds don't give a shiz and don't even try to help me do something about it even though I've mentioned it a few times and asked for their opinion. That's why I'm not made for sch@@l.

I'm really, really, really not made for sch^^l. I should've been a genius then I don't need to go through these stages of fr13ndsh1p and worries. I'm not good with fr!end5. Everywhere I sit.. it's all wrong. If I sit on the left, all heads will be turned to the right. On the right, heads will be turned to the left. Middle, heads turned either left or right. I've been through this and still going through. What the hell is wrong with me, don't fit in with anybody.

I see people chatting together and I feel like I'm a nobody. If I look down at myself, I would see a chair because I'm invisible. Haha. When they need help, it's a call for me. Nobody can have a normal, friendly conversation with me. Only for a while. It's not smooth like they have chat with others. They also don't believe because they always double check with the t34ch3r. Would I lie? *inside joke*

In the morning, I feel like a pinball. Everyone bumps into me and I'm being bumped from left to right. They don't even have a mouth to say, "Excuse me." People stare at me like I have a koala on my back as my backpack. What's wrong with me? I wish I could just poke their eyeballs out.

Lying down on the floor out in the open is something great. I did that and it was so beautiful. I was staring up at pretty clouds, moving very slowly with birds flying up there. Yummy. I didn't know the sky could be so beautiful!! You should try it. Now I know why it's so romantic to lie on your back in the park. It really is, very romantic, in fact. Except two stupid idiot fictional characters called Edward Cullen and Bella Swan who lie on their backs but look at each other's faces. Wasted the beautiful view..

I also realised I hate Crackface very much. The proof is in me. When I see her face, a big wave of annoyance washes over me and I ignored her once because her face was so frigging annoying. I also get pissed when she starts laughing like a stupid g-4-y idiot. It's just so wu55y. She's a very secretive, two-faced, leech idiot. When she needs me, she sticks to me. When she wants to make me jealous by showing off her friends, she has a smirk pasted across her face. Yes, I can ditch her but I need some info for now..

Not to mention, I can't wait for tomorrow! Why? Because I'm praying hard that Newt will have his Takamine guitar there. Ooooh! Makes me wanna drool thinking of it. "It's so pretty," said Seb. Haha. Cute! Takamine guitars, old or not, are delicious! I really hope his wife is there because it raaawks. I wanna hear that yummy melodious sound coming out from that glorious soundhole while I strum the smooth and lovely metal strings and hope there are no dead strings.

How do you slant your fingers? I'm a true blue noob at that but I'm good about the other things like tuning.. blah blah. Maybe I should start writing songs like Chuck since I suck. Putting myself down is a good thing. Why? Because when if I get better, I'll feel professional! Oops! The horn came out too loudly from that trumpet. Nah. I wouldn't be like that. I just hope I'll improve and seriously put in more effort like Dad said. I don't give a crap about practicing now.. Bad habit to fix.

Haha. I nearly fell asleep while writing this so I'll just end it here. Love, the school reject.