one day i thought i’d see her with her daddy by her side
Sometimes he lets that boss get in his head
He can’t see past that mountain of deadlines on his desk
5 o' clock he’s that last one out of the gate
And he gets cut off, flipped off, ticked off out on the interstate
And he wonders why this world won’t leave him alone
Till he hears that little voice holler “daddy’s home”
Things that matter
Things that don’t
She’s held on to that grudge all her life
Had thirty years of anger
Since her dad walked out that night
She thinks of all the moments that he's missed
All the birthdays, ballets, first dates
That seems too much to forget
She gets that call that said he don’t have long
She walks in
He starts crying
The past is gone
Things that matter
Things that don’t
Time ain’t on my side
Don’t want to leave this world
With why didn’t I?
Why didn’t I?
Yeah why didn’t I?
Sometimes I take on this world by myself
Thinking I got all the answers
Don’t need anybody’s help
Well god was right there waiting for me all along
To fall down on my knees surrender all
Things that matter
Things that don’t
Things that matter
Things that don’t
xxx
I don't like being who I'm not.
I don't lie. Sorry.
If apologies are what you want, have them. I can repeat them over and over again but I still won't mean it. I have not done wrong, I shouldn't be punished, scolded, lectured.
xxx
Scars never disappear.
You don't need to get my drift, to get this line.
xxx
On a happier, MORE IGNORANT and MUCH BRIGHTER side, I love Seb's voice. It's him, right? I think it is. He's so adorable.
And Nick Wheelerrr.
They should sing.
"She said there's a cute guy at the basketball court." she said.
I think to myself, "Who can be cuter than Nick?" (:
xxx

Holy... GEEBUS. His mouth can do all sorts of funny shapes. And it's so cute. And the messy hair. Ah, I have a thing for cute messy hair. (:
INFATUATION is a strong word. <3
xxx
never been anywhere cold as you
Yeah, you know what? After you read this, don't tell me to delete it or whatever. Go and delete it yourself. I don't give a damn how rude and idiotic this gets. You have your own limits, so do others.
I hate you. I hate all of you, retards.
Whose side are you on actually? Get so darn pissed off at us just because of one damn shiz thing that happened.
One thing. And always will. The guitar.
Know why anyone would wanna be a musician? Because they will be loved, rich and tour the world every year to forget all the shiz that has ever happened to them.
We should've never ever known the word "music" then we wouldn't have known Sebastien Lefebvre or Simple Plan or whoever shiz. You said we had no interest in anything. Know what? I've always been afraid to admit what I like. Here I'll tell you that I'm never gonna get what I wanted to do. I've always liked the guitar, the sound, the rhythm, the beats. When I finally have the guts to admit that, it just gets crushed deeper and deeper to the depths of the sea, six feet under.
Don't believe it? Then I can't help you. Such a person who would be disgraceful to have or to be seen with.
Go ahead. Smash that guitar into pieces of Cinderella's glass slipper. I don't give a shiz. In fact, I don't anymore. I'm not interested in the guitar. Anymore. I will not be acquainted with that piece of dung anymore. I will never ever touch it, look at it or love that freaking crappy Takamine. I won't even practice anymore. I'll leave that idiotic crap to rot in a corner.
Heh. No wonder Nick Wheeler and Billie Joe Armstrong love their first guitars till death do them part. They call it their babies, wives or whatever. Guess that'll never happen to me. Billie's case was the sweetest. His lovable parents gave it to him even though they didn't have much money. Look where he is now.
You know what too? When we walked out of that Takamine haven empty handed, I had to blink back tears and let them out once I got home. No, you don't need to know that. Anymore. Because it's over. I declare it is.
I'm so over guitars. I'm so over Sebastien, Nick, whoever. I'm so over chords. I'm so over strings. I'm so over soundholes. I'm so over the word 'acoustic'. I'm so over knobs. I'm so over songs I wanted to learn. I'm so over tuners. I'm so over koa wood. I'm so over Firebirds, Gibsons, Takamines, Taylors. I'm so over guitar cases. I'm so over with anything related to guitars.
I hate it more than hate in other words.
I'll only attend that effing guitar lesson because you force me to. I won't even put anymore effort. Zero percent. So the teacher is up for a retard spaz in his class this week.
Like Weezer said it, "No I don't; I'm just a no class, beat down fool; And I will always be that way; I might as well enjoy my life; And watch the stars play."
Yeah, I love you, Weezer.
I will pretend that I accept your apologies but deep down inside there's hatred, pain and blood leaking out from hearts. I hate you. Haha. No point in telling me to practice. I'll let those damn chords die in my brain. Lalalala... Amuse yourself with Tyson.
Read the orange words.



TYSON ON YOUR LEFT
Hahahahahahahahahahahaha. I hope you love this.
Hey dad look at me
Think back and talk to me
Did I grow up according to plan?
And do you think I'm wasting my time doing things I wanna do?
But it hurts when you disapprove all along
And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't pretend that
I'm alright
And you can't change me
'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
I try not to think
About the pain I feel inside
Did you know you used to be my hero?
All the days you spent with me
Now seem so far away
And it feels like you don't care anymore
And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't stand another fight
And nothing's alright
'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Nothing's gonna change the things that you said
Nothing's gonna make this right again
Please don't turn your back
I can't believe it's hard
Just to talk to you
But you don't understand
'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
So much for your promises
They died the day you let me go
Caught up in a web of lies
But it was just too late to know
I thought it was you
Who would stand by my side
And now youve given me, given me
Nothing but shattered dreams, shattered dreams
Feel like I could run away, run away
From this empty heart
You said youd die for me
Woke up to reality
And found the future not so bright
I dreamt the impossible
That maybe things could work out right
I thought it was you
Who would do me no wrong
(chorus)
From this empty heart
I thought it was you who youd die for love
(chorus)
Oh no no no - you said youd die for me
Oh oh, oh oh, die for me
So much for your promises
You have a way of coming easily to me
And when you take, you take the very best of me
So I start a fight cause I need to feel something
And you do what you want cause I'm not what you wanted
[Chorus:]
Oh what a shame, what a rainy ending given to a perfect day
Just walk away, no use defending words that you will never say
And now that I'm sitting here thinking it through
I've never been anywhere cold as you
You put up walls and paint them all a shade of gray
And I stood there loving you and wished them all away
And you come away with a great little story
Of a mess of a dreamer with the nerve to adore you
[Repeat Chorus]
You never did give a damn thing honey but I cried, cried for you
And I know you wouldn't have told nobody if I died, died for you
(Died for you)
Oh what a shame, what a rainy ending given to a perfect day
Every smile you fake is so condescending
Counting all the scars you made
And now that I'm sitting here thinking it through
I've never been anywhere cold as you
MUCHO GRACIAS.
when darkness turns to light
Ew. Crackface is so beautiful. She looks worse than Britney Spears. Duh. She's trying to act cute and people like that make me sick! She has these curls of hair on her forehead here and there and the tip of her oh-so-wonderful ponytail curled. Come on! Look at her weight! I mean. I'm mean. She's ugly and totally lame. Look at that shirt and pants she was wearing. Straight from the market. She's sleeping over at her friend's house tonight. Wow. So daring so soon? Yeah. Go ahead. Be my guest.
The others are as bad. Their Krakens' a-comin' out, straightened hair, braces, handbags, dresses, shiny shoes, skirts from the Motherhood shop. What else? I didn't miss anything out, right? And the sliding handphones. Yeah. Imagine those old women who pretend they are my friends. Of course, my Sebastien shoes stood out from all those slippers. [: Am proud tuh say!
I here by admit that I have no friends at sch**l and wish to have none for sl*ts exist in the peaceful world. You can't have any best friends nowadays. I should write a book on that topic. I hate everyone at sch**l and this song is totally about me! (I'm Just A Kid by Simple Plan!) :
I woke up it was 7
I waited till 11
Just to figure out that no one would call
I think I got a lot of friends but I don't hear from them
What's another night all alone?
When your spending everyday on your own
And here it goes
[Chorus:]
I'm just a kid and life is a nightmare
I'm just a kid, I know that its not fair
Nobody cares, cause I'm alone and the world is
Having more fun than me
Tonight...
And maybe when the night is dead, I'll crawl into my bed
Staring at these 4 walls again
I'll try to think about the last time, I had a good time
Everyone's got somewhere to go
And they're gonna leave me here on my own and here it goes
I'm just a kid and life is a nightmare
I'm just a kid, I know that its not fair
Nobody cares, cause I'm alone and the world is
Having more fun than me
What the f`k is wrong with me?
Don't fit in with anybody
How did this happen to me?
Wide awake I'm bored and I can't fall asleep
And every night is the worst night ever
I'm just a kid [repeat x5]
I'm just a kid and life is a nightmare
I'm just a kid, I know that its not fair
Nobody cares, cause I'm alone and the world is
Nobody wants to be alone in the world.
I'm just a kid and life is a nightmare
I'm just a kid, I know that its not fair
Nobody cares, cause I'm alone and the world is
Nobody wants to be alone in the world
Nobody cares, cause I'm alone and the world is
Having more fun than me tonight
I'm all alone tonight
Nobody cares tonight
Cause I'm just a kid tonight
Would post more lyrics but I'm afraid it'll waste too much space. I'm listening to Gives You Hell for the 100th time today.. Hope we'll do the guitar solo tonight! We're learning two songs now. Not to mention, Newt encourages us to use a tuner. Right. If I can't tune it by ear, I can just stop. It's like so lame but whatever. Back to Crackface. I hope when she sees my face, I'll give her hell but that's most unlikely since I can't box people at sch-sch-sch.
LOL! That was the craziest thing ever! We played Gives You Hell... four at a time! Quite synchronised. Had me laughing my guts out!!
PS: We heard Simple Plan's Crazy and AAR's Dirty Little Secret and It Ends Tonight at Carls' Jr. Our jaws totally dropped down onto the floor. We were like, "It's It Ends Tonight next." When we were almost leaving, it played. Kewl! <3
you’re the calm when my world is crashing
Love SP's vlogs these few days except most of it is about Pat. ): Not enough Seb or David. But there was one part where Pierre was at the beach. *this news is for Mom. They were at Sao Paolo. Now they're supposed to be in.. Rio De Janeiro. What a mouthful. Thank God they don't use Youtube for vlogs anymore. Loading one of those vlogs on MusiquePlus a.k.a Pat's crib. I can see someone interesting with nice canines. Haha! It's not really loading now. Aw.
Taco is playing some weird Westlife song which is making me fall asleep.. but it changed to Top Of The World.
I'm so satisfied with the whole learn-ourselves Gives You Hell thing. Well. Still not fully satisfied since everyone is avoiding a certain topic. Are we not too convincing? Great. Here's a simile thingy about Taco. The hot guy changes, the type of guitar changes. Now she wants this flowery guitar thing. Should I start smashing my head on watermelons? Ok, anyway, we can even play bar chords now. Sorta. And the whole sliding thing which just rips skin off yah fingers. Can't slide up yet.
Can't wait to quit that *damned united place. That face is getting annoying.. so are those betches there. And those lousy quality stuff. Hopefully we won't be joining that other one.
Sounds like a bad idea. Mom wants to learn too but she'll have to learn Gives You Hell with us.
! If we get another one, that is...
Taco's been posting many pictures so I'm trying to write as many word posts to substitute hers. I hope this post has enough.
Checking out the latest movies. 12 Rounds sounds interesting though I don't know any of the cast. The Damned United coming out tomorrow. Haha. The poster makes it sound interesting. And Duplicity. Sounds witty. Well, they only sound interesting but... I'm just sticking to CSI:NY.
Hey, speaking of making themes. I feel like making one but I'm afraid I'll make it too cheery. I have something in mind but it sounds too colourful. I'll try something if I feel awake today. What should the theme be? Please suggest something. Tyson sounds good, no?
i’m sorry but this is urgent!
Wonderful! I just went to check some fan sites and I'm sorry to say that I'll have to post some pictures.

looooooooook at seb's shirt and hair. so adorable. that shirt looks like pierre's..

OVERSIZED SHIRT

AHEM WHO IS THIS? i would cut out her face definitely if i'm not that nice.

haha! be my guest to guess who isn't there; pierre's new role model shirt looks nice. gotta love the green.
We heard Save You on the radio today.
Oh my God. I dreamt of Josh (?!?!) last night and it's all because of Taco! She said something about him then I don't know how she got it hammered into my head because I didn't think of him after that. I dreamt that I watched two movies with him in it and it felt like years. Maybe because I was sad we ditched the Las Vegas book yesterday.
The guitar lesson was a disaster. I'm just gonna find all the tutorials I can, try them out and get the hell out of that drain hole. Shouldn't guitar teachers be patient with their students?! He was like, "You didn't even do this at all!" Don't need to higher your damn voice, wuss. We wouldn't be there if tutorial videos came out in December. Lame. We spent like forty minutes practicing that fingering for One Republic's Stop And Stare.
I don't care what I'm saying here or get scolded. We obviously wasted a whole lot of ink printing out those chords because he just creates his own just because he can play by ear. *SNEERS* He said we would be playing those hard stuff in the future. The future is now?! We should be learning the easy one first then those chords which split your fingers into two parts. I can't even hold it. My fingers!! And you blame me?! I'll smash your stupid Takamine for all I care.
Taco, please please please please agree to practicing the tutorials because I hate that stinking place...
disappointed, jerked around
Seb's tattoo is not a dragon. It's a Zen garden with trees and bamboos and stuff like that.
I.am.speechless.
There's a part of me which doesn't feel satisfied. Unhappy. Not contented. With what? I don't know.
Restlessness. Selfishness.
I am sooo self-centered sometimes but who isn't?
Maybe oneeee picture won't hurt.

I wonder if he cried while getting it done. I wonder if he got it for someone. I wonder if someone chose the theme for him. I wonder if someone was on his mind while he had it done. I wonder how long it took. I wonder when's gonna be the next time I'll see it. I wonder when they'll finally add us to Twitter. Are we scary? I don't imagine.
Okay, maybe I'm obsessing. Just a teensy weensy bit.
We need a new WordPress skin with three columns. Reference anyone? I can't seem to find nice ones. All the nice ones are two columns. Too little space for writers like us, no?
Lefebvre is actually Smith.
So it'd be Sebastian Smith if he weren't French. Weird. Have you ever thought of that? If I hadn't Googled for French last names, I wouldn't even have known.
Sebastien Lefebvre sounds better, doesn't it? Of course it does.
The twang slang to his words rock.
David is somethingone cooooooooool. HAHA. -inside joke-
Goodbye.
Light lunches feel gooood.
If I can help it, I don't ever wanna listen to One Republic for a while. It burns a hole through my skin when I hear it. Why? Because we're learning it and it's no fun. So cross my fingers and hope to get it over with. I wanna play something Taylor. Taylor made. (: She's awesome awesome. ;D
Speaking of which, Takamine won't reach our doorstep. Ever.
Currently listening to the airstrike and gunshots coming from the brother's COD multiplayer game.
pretending that she still loves me
Aww. I'm kinda sad because I'm not the first to add Melee or Ricky to my Twitter. It's sad because they won't notice you anymore. Like SP. What do you have to do to get them to add you? Spam add me? Disappointed...
Today is guitar lesson day. I'm nervous because we don't know what he's picked out from all those songs. Probably the last one we wanna learn playing like One Republic, possibly? Nooooo! I hope something spicy like SP songs. Haha! Time To Say Goodbye. Crazy chords. And we know it's never simple, never easy.
I feel like posting some lyrics. Totally true.
"Jump" by SP (:
Jump!
I don't wanna wake up today
Cause everyday's the same
And I'd been waiting so long
For things to change
I'm sick of this town
Sick of my job
Sick of my friends 'cause everyone's jaded
Sick of this place, I wanna break free
I'm so frustrated, I just wanna
Jump! (Jump!)
Don't wanna think about tomorrow (Jump!)
I just don't care tonight
I just wanna jump (Jump!)
Don't wanna think about my sorrow
Let's go
Forget your problems
I just wanna jump
I don't wanna wake up one day
And find out it's too late
To do all the things I wanna do
So I'm gonna pack up my bags
I'm never coming back
'Cause the years are passing by
And I'm wasting all my ti-ti-time
Sick of this house
Sick of being broke
Sick of this town, that's bringing me down
I'm sick of this place, I wanna break free,
I'm so frustrated, I just wanna jump
Jump! (Jump!)
Don't wanna think about tomorrow (Jump!)
I just don't care tonight,
I just wanna jump (Jump!)
Don't wanna think about my sorrow
Let's go
Forget your problems
I just wanna jump
I just wanna jump
I can't take it anymore [x3]
Forget tomorrow, I just wanna jump (Jump!)
Don't wanna think about tomorrow (Jump!)
I just don't care tonight,
I just wanna jump (Jump!)
Don't wanna think about my sorrow
Let's go
Forget your problems
It's time to let them go
Forget tomorrow, I just wanna jump (Jump!)
I just wanna jump
Au revoir, dreams!
don’t look back, you may find another clue

The blur look I gave my teacher.
"Why're you so slow today?"
Haha. I got that from my teacher today for being such a blur case at class today. At first I forgot how to strum.
I'm always doing stuff like that. Oh. Today once we walked into class we saw... his Takamine. LOOOOOOOOOOOVE. We had to stroke it lovingly of course. (: How can you not? It's beautiful even if it is just a piece of wood and some strings. No, he didn't lend it to us. He absolutely yelled when someone opened the door and nearly knocked down his beloved 'wife'. Ehh, I would do that too. We played along to his piano lead - that was fun. And told us that we were a band and must play at the same time. Lol. Imagine being in a band with your teacher. That'd be weird.
Okay. I am at a loss for words. Need to refuel brain with brain food. But I just had tuna! It's supposed to strengthen your brain, right???
My friends just keep getting on my nerves. Can't they just leave me alone? I don't like my friends. At all. They are soooo annoying, I feel like punching them. Call me crazy or stupid or retarded but I'm only telling you the truth. You wouldn't be friends with them if you were in my shoes. So feel free to step into my shoes. I bet you won't be able to take a day without wishing you were somewhere or someone else.

Isn't this monochrome pic of David with Seb in the background just artistic?
Hey, I wanna be a rockstar.

we are a band. yeah, man. rock on. .|..|
Currently loving Mary's Song (Oh my, my) by Taylor Swift. (:

We might practise soon. :O

slammin' of doors instead of kissing goodnight// from left to right: kevin, howie, brian, a.j, nick
And you know why. You complete me.
“you’re acting like a pack of rabid dogs!”
Wow. I'm definitely looking forward to the next guitar lesson. Even though I can't wait to figure out how to play songs like how our teacher does it with this weird confused face. Haha!
Yesterday, it was Welcome To My Life, the acoustic version. Awesome!
Newt didn't even notice that we made a new CD. Shh. Wonderful. Can't wait to learn all the songs there. Something weird about something. When we stop our guitar lessons when we're like done or whatever, how do we know the pattern of the songs that we wanna learn? Good question. I mean I don't know - down, down, down, down, up, up, down or whatever.. I can't play by ear. So how long would it take for us to find how the tune goes??
That'll be later. Now, yesterday's lesson went well because everyone acted like clowns. Newt did stupid stuff like burping and acting like the REAL blurcase. LoL!!! Taco and I did stupid stuff like dropping stuff everywhere.. blah blah blah. So on.
I can't wait to practice though. Changing chords is something cooler now. Understanding is much easier. Reading tabs has no progress. I can't wait to practice. Heehee...!
I can't even wait for the next lesson. Two lessons a week would be better. (: PS: I'm still dreamin' in the morning, I'm dreamin' all through the day and when I'm dreaming I know that it's okay~~

Heaven will be waiting when I fall into your open arms

Don't change a thing, perfect as you are; Time has a way, time is all I've got
We were both young when I first saw you
I close my eyes and the flashback starts;
I'm standing there on a balcony in summer air the top floor of the shopping mall.
See the lights bands, see the party guitarists, the ball gowns Gibsons
See you make your way through the crowd stand there with the black headstock
and say, "Buy me."
Little did I know
That you were Romeo Takamine; you were throwing pebbles making music,
And my daddy said, "Stay away from Juliet Buy it when you're professional."
And I was crying on the staircase,
begging you, 'Please, don't go.'
And I said,
"Romeo Takamine, take me somewhere we can be alone please don't disappear when I am gone
I'll be waiting; all there's left to do is run practice.
You'll be the prince guitar and I'll be the princess owner
It's a love story - baby daddy just say 'Yes.'
So I sneak out to the garden ask dad to go there to see you.
We I keep quiet 'cause we're I'd be dead if they knew.
So close your eyes stay right there; escape this town for a little while.
'Cause you were Romeo Takamine, I was a scarlet letter just a dreamer,
And my daddy said "Stay away from Juliet Buy it when you're professional,"
But you were everything to me; I was begging you, 'Please, don't go,'
And I said,
"Romeo Takamine, take me somewhere we can be alone please don't disappear when I am gone
I'll be waiting; all there's left to do is run practice
You'll be the prince guitar and I'll be the princess owner
It's a love story - baby daddy just say 'Yes.'
Romeo Takamine save me; they're tryin' to tell me how to feel.
This love is difficult, but it's real.
Don't be afraid; we'll make it out of this mess.
It's a love story - baby daddy just say 'Yes.'
Oh.
I got tired of waiting,
Wondering if you were ever comin' around.
My faith in you was fading
When I met you on the outskirts of town in that guitar shop
And I said,
"Romeo Takamine save me - I've been feeling so alone.
I keep waiting for you but you never come.
Is this in my head? I don't know what to think-"
He knelt to the ground You came right to me and pulled out a ring stuck out your neck and said,
"Marry me Be with me, Juliet owner. you'll never have to be alone.
I You love you me and that's all I you really know.
I You talked to your dad, go pick out a white dress the one you want;
It's a love story - baby daddy just say 'Yes.'
Oh, oh.
We were both young when I first saw you...
Love Story by Taylor Swift but edited by Cheeseburger (:




