i can’t turn this around, i keep running into walls
You know what?
I think I'm a genius. I keep picking out crazy books. My keen eye for books has been too eager, leading me to make mistakes I shouldn't have made. But then again, that's where you learn from. The bloody mistakes you wish you could take back after you realize how stupid you've been.

Sigh. I've just read one of the most complicated books ever to be written. It's by Ann Brashares and it's called The Last Summer of you and me. And it's just nuts. I'm having a headache after reading it and I'm not even half way through. This shows how much brain power I've used to understand what's going on. Or not. It's probably just the bad lighting in my room. The lighting that my family has been worrying about for my sake.
Example 1:
Dad comes into the room and looks at me, reading. He stands there for a moment, hand on his hip then goes: Are you trying to spoil your eyes? or Is this light bright enough? Do you want me to bring in the reading lamp?
No, thanks Dad.
Example 2:
Then, aunt sits down on the bed and looks down at me for a while. She goes, Why don't you angle yourself this way so that your shadow isn't blocking the words? It's not bright enough in here.
So yeah. That light is probably giving this headache. Bleh! :/
Anyways, I was talking about the book. Yeah. It's complicated. It has too much tiny, microscopic detail of everything about everything. You know what I mean? First it's in the past then it's in the future then it's about the past again. There's too much history, too much detailed emotion, too much craziness about coming home and going away. There isn't much of a story like that anyway. Should've known but I was blinded by... my greed to devour good books.
And I never did like The Sisterhood of Traveling Pants because I found it kind of stupid but I know a lot of people love it. It's... twisted and written by the same author. Maybe I don't know how to appreciate it. Maybe I don't think like those people who reviewed it as amazing, unputdownable, deep, funny?, a good book to read during summer. Maybe I'm just too childish for 'mature' books. I don't know.
So... any fans of Ann Brashares here? I'd gladly sell this book off to you. Brand new and looks new. Um, oh great, there's a movie coming out for it too. Um, exclude me? Thanks.
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tryna erase you from my mind
If you've been reading our Tweets, I said: We often give advice without listening to ourselves.
I actually noticed how true that was one day and I've started thinking before giving advice. Most of the time. I have to listen to myself first if not, how am I going to advise people? Hypocrite would be a meaner word, actually but I'm not using it. For example, we tell them, "You expect an old man to change his ways? He won't." And there we are, expecting change we'll never see.
And by the way, have you noticed that you get hungrier when you're eating unhappily??? I don't know. I think it's true. My new philosophy which I should be given credit to. It's like when I'm at home, I get hungry a few hours after dinner. When I'm on vacation, I'm okay even waaaay after an early dinner. I can stay up till past midnight and not have to look around for a snack. When I come back from holiday, I get hungry again. What do you say? Is it psychological because I swear I've never thought about it till today.
We all have to find our release point. We have to know what helps us feel better. Some people cry all day then they get okay after that. Some people scribble everything into their diaries. Some people scream it all out at no one. Then there's me. I don't know if anybody does this but I write my sad and frustrated and angry parts into my stories. I make put my characters in my shoes. It might not be exactly the way I feel or the way it happened but the gist is there and that's enough for me. I can write a whole lot of bullshit but when I come to the emotional part, you know it's me, writing from my burdened soul. (Man, I sound like some emo poet.)
There's no point in pretending something that made us sad or angry didn't happen. It'll only make us nuts. No, seriously, can we all stop acting like nothing happened then later give an outburst and everything pours out? Yeah, that sucks and I honestly don't know why I would give a shit about that.
When I get my first decent paycheck, I'm going to keep half of it to send some people off to stress therapy. They need it. Most of us who live in the city need it. Please don't drive yourself up the walls. No one can help you if you do. No one can help you even if they want to.
And lastly, I can't take everyone's burden and also I'm not the type to walk away from someone when they're venting out anger, frustration, misery, whatever the F they vent. I will listen and I would love to lend an ear to you but sometimes when it gets to the point when my ears want to bleed, I feel like hurling myself at a wall. Where's that person who will take my burden when the world comes down??? *heaves a huge sigh which you will probably hear even from the furthest corner of the earth*
P.S: This is NOT about you. Will everyone just read it as advice? Thanks.
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By the way, has anyone read The Making of Mia?!?!?
It's the lousiest piece of crap I've ever read in my entire life. It's about some fat chick (I don't have anything against fat chicks and I'm not the slimmest piece of model) who gets a job at some magazine company and is constantly being ridiculed and humiliated then she gets fired. She decides to plot revenge against her ex-boss by - are you ready for it? get this straight - having a complete makeover. She goes under the laser to correct her boobs (WTF?), her nose (Hello, Lady Gaga!), her lips and whatever the hell it is she wants to correct. And she loses weight.
What the serious eff? I'm not being rude, I'm just stumped by how stupid a plot like that can help with anything except make you who you're not supposed to be. It's like having a new face!!! You're not you anymore! WTF is the point in being born as yourself then?!?!?!?!!?!?!?!? Spaz! C and I decided that it's a lousy piece of sh-t book and I'm going to sell it to anyone who wants to read it.
I'm sorry if you like it. I don't.
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merrychristmasmerrychristmasmerrychristmasmerrychristmasmerrychristmas!
Merry Christmas, folks! Be safe, eat lots o' turkey and bless y'all!

Wishing you all peace, love, joy and happiness and wealth and prosperity and everything good in the year to come.
Happy Holidays!!!
Remember to spread the love and joy! Sharing is caring. Giving and taking is essential. Good manners at the table is important. Cheer up if you're snowed in. Santa paid me a visit last night. He said he doesn't appreciate the bitten gingerbread man I left out for him. Sorry, big guy. I did tell you that I wasn't going to wish for Nickolas Don Wheeler this Xmas. 
Love y'all.
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add on, that I’m a coward
My blogging momentum has been swayed by the sweet temptation of books.

Yes. Another one of Susan Elizabeth Phillips's brilliant work of art. I honestly love her books and the Chicago Stars series even though the plots are almost similar. Somehow she always manages to write honest pieces of work which are believable and totally sweet. We even think along the same lines except she has actually written and published them out.
I love this book - Nobody's Baby But Mine. Dr Jane Darlington and Calvin Bonner. I love their smart-mouthed arguments and how Jane gets along so well with Annie. Not gonna spoil the story so I'm not going to do a full review but basically it's about Jane, who is a genius and a physicist, tricking Cal, the dumb jock, so that she can have a baby with a normal IQ without him knowing. When Cal, whom Jane assumed was stupid because of his pretty but supposedly dumb looks, finds out what she did, he becomes pissed and.. La-la-la. Go read the story yourself.
If any of you have read this, don't you think that Kevin Tucker is a cutie? I do.

The second one I'm done with is Match Me If You Can. Heath Champion (Heath D. Campione) and Annabelle Granger. Annabelle, if you read Natural Born Charmer, is Dean's best friend and this is the book where they first meet. Again, an amazing book. Very touching and full of emotion.
Heath (a.k.a The Python) is a sports agent and Annabelle is a matchmaker. She's been known to fail everything she does and her family do their best to convince her that she's a failure and she's better off becoming an accountant. Heath is 34 and looking for a wife. He has already hired a matchmaker, Portia Powers, to help him find a wife but does his best friend's wife, Molly a favor by seeing her friend who is also a matchmaker. That matchmaker would be Annabelle. And there begins the story of lots of ups and downs and convincing and heartache and also happiness. Read it if you want to know Heath's real name.
Have I mentioned that I think Pippi Tucker is really cute?
Although these two books have been incredibly wonderful and I had lots of Laugh-Out-Loud moments to myself, I still prefer Natural Born Charmer. Read my review on the main characters and whatnot. When I read what I wrote a few months back, I wonder where I found all those words.

Dean Robillard and Blue Bailey appeal more to me because: 1. Dean is cooler than the rest. 2. Blue is cute and fragile and her disastrous fashion is hilarious. 3. The story feels.. personal. 4. The house is Nobody's Baby But Mine sounds creepy. 5. The Portia and Bodie parts in Match Me If You Can don't raise any interest in me. Yeah..that's it.
I'm starting on This Heart of Mine which is Kevin Tucker's story but it's irritating me for some reason. I think one of the reasons is because her name is Molly Somerville. The name Molly brings up an image of a plain woman in my mind and that's not catchy at all. I don't know what made me relate that to the name but it's there. Another reason is because the story is almost the same as Nobody's Baby But Mine. I think I need something to drift the similarities apart and that something is taking a break from this book and reading something else. And.. Molly is Phoebe Calebow's sister and Phoebe does have her bitchy moments in Match Me If You Can.
I'm now getting an itchy obsession for somebody to draw Dean and Blue out on paper so that I can 'see' them. But I can't draw and people won't know how I'm imagining them in my head. The pain of not being an artist.

Oh, I just remembered that I didn't write about Heaven, Texas. Sweet old Gracie Snow and country bad boy Bobby Tom Denton. I didn't really read the whole thing because my eyes blurred after a while and I didn't pick it up after that. From what I've read, the shy, plain Gracie manages to grab the football star's attention and all I've got to say to beautiful girls is, "Plain but nice chicks are magnets too."
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Parlez vouz francais.
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Listening to Backstreet Boys - Masquerade. It sounds a bit like 3Oh!3's Starstrukk, I almost expect the Boys to whistle Whoohoo! :/
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I changed my mind. I want a Dean Robillard of my own !!
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she saw the bright lights, she caught the fever
Today, I read Jinx by Meg Cabot all over again.
I love that story. Don't you just love Zackary? And the way Jean acts to him? I like to read wherever I am, no matter what place. It's just so awesome.
I wanted to read the Heather Wells series also. But I guess I'll only read the nice parts about Jordan and Cooper Cartwright. God, I love those two. They're so sweet to her! And Heather's ex-career as a musician.
Did you know Avalon High is coming out with a part two? I'm gonna read it.
It's not "girly" of me to read Meg Cabot books. I mean, it isn't a girly girl thing. Not mostly about fashion or sappy love. It's just more to the girly side..
I can't wait to read Airhead 2 though the chances are low. There's gonna be Airhead 3. Yeah! That's what I'm talking about. Meg keeps the suspense high and I'm really looking forward to it.

I hope Meg Cabot comes out with more series..
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and let it all wash away in the downpour
The Uninvited. 5/10
It wasn't as scary as I thought it was. I mean, me and the brother were huddling together, waiting as it all went quiet. The storyline is good because it wasn't confusing but they didn't explain much about the girl, Anna doing everything alone. The characters were perfect because you wanna say, "Are you sure she isn't the one?" Well, it wasn't a good ending. The whole show practically died. Okay, bad. Definitely not a must-see.
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I'm excited about Blogathon.
I'm certainly gonna enjoy our own radio. Songs of our choice. Not to mention, awesome ones.
Speak of music. All the new BSB songs have really nice titles. I can't wait. This isn't gonna be one of those crazy 24/7 fanatic act, is it?
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AW MAN! I'm frigging hungry for Airhead : Being Nikki.
And we don't go to bookstores anymore because I'm not even half way through those new books. I need that story.. now.. please.. oh.. my.. GOD!!!
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Stabmyback.
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Here's another thing about those "guitar lessons". I'd really like to hear your opinion but, uh, unfortunately.. (:
We're learning You Raise Me Up. How great is that? I hate it.
I'm glad we're leaving soon.
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Can someone tell me if Real World is even on the Transformers 2 soundtrack list?
Because I am selfish. I love that song.
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No Cheez's like or not or top five music videos this week.
you got your pop star, i’ll be your rock star
Listening to : Back To Me by AAR.
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Boys Like Girls never fail to amuse me with their lyrics.
One minute, I'm like When am I ever gonna listen to Thunder again? and the next minute, I'm like Oh my God! I can't wait for their next album!
It's all because of their latest single, Love Drunk.
Haha! Martin is uh-may-zing. I fall in love with his lyrics and then his songs. Taco is also part of the influence. We just made fun of Great Escape to tease each other and bam. "Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer" then now "I used to be love drunk, but now I'm hung over; I love you forever, forever is over".
Boo-tiful!
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I can't wait for BSB's first single! This month! <3
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I hope SP is working on their latest album. No vlogs, no nothing. Nothing seems to be in progress..
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I'm gonna start Inkspell. Today. Right now. Soon. After this post is over. Again into the world of fantasy.
Partly because the computer bores me now. Left 4 Dead? How many times have I played it already? But I can't part with my computer now because I have projects running in and out and it makes me feel guilty!
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My top ten pretty songs.

ONE. like I said up there.

TWO. because.. I don't know?

THREE. it's actually Know Your Enemy but I don't like the cover.. anyway, I like Green Day and their punk rock.

FOUR. catchy song.

FIVE. it's such a different LP song, making it special.

SIX. this song just gets in my head and never gets out.

SEVEN. on my chart or whatever again. Uh.. same cover as Gotta Be Somebody.

EIGHT. awesome piano, verse, bridge and chorus.

NINE. i'm sorry, I just love this cover..

TEN. inconsolable and loving it.
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I can't stop listening to Love Drunk.. damn..
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GO, BLOGATHON. <3
and there’s really nothing there
Oh..My..GAWD.
This is not about Michael Jackson, alright?
This is about the movie Quarantine.
About the dumbest zombie movie I've ever watched.
I give thee 2/10.
Like the brother said, half an hour of sitting around doing nothing, another half hour screaming and attempting to kill zombies and finally half an hour at the fire station. God, could any movie get more boring than that? I hope not.
In the end, everyone just died. How pathetically sad is that?!
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By the way, rest in peace, King of Pop.
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Another BTW.
That person is getting on my nerves.
She is soooo irritating.
Why do all the good ones get bad ones?
Know what I mean?
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The Three Musketeers is a really good book and I happen to like the movie as well. Duh, does anyone even read Classics nowadays because people give me the, "You're, like, so old fashioned" look when they see me reading classics.
Among the three and D'Artagnan, I like Athos best.
What do you say? He's good looking, brave, strong and silent kind, patient, caring and he gave his heart away to a bad woman. See what I mean by the good ones getting bad ones? Why do the good people always have to suffer? I mean, what comes around goes around but by then, people have already suffered..
No more weird thoughts.
Does anyone think along the same lines as me? Because I hope I'm not the only one giving so much thought about this.
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PEACE.

the street looks when it’s just rained
I finished Jumper. Finally! Oh my God. I feel so happy.
It was a really, really beautiful and bittersweet ending. I'm getting weirder by the moment. Nowadays I seem to like the book only after I finish it. Real weird. I'm like blah half way through but I just continue.
I love the way David learns how to make decisions in the end. He made all the right decisions - he sent the bad guy over to the NSA, he made his dad go to rehab, he let one of the agents go and he finally went to find a shrink because his mother told him to before she died.
My heart ripped and tore to see the characters go through pain like how David cried when he blew up a bad guy but not on purpose and how his dad cried when he realised his mistakes and David's mother dying. It was unexpected. Except I don't like David for crying half the time. It makes his girlfriend sound like his mother when she's comforting him.
Not to mention, one of the praises on the first few pages or cover said that the book brings the question "what if" to your mind. What if you had the guy you wanted revenge on so what would you do with him? What if you could escape from danger in the blink of an eye? What if you owned that big amount of money?

The movie is very different from the book. Yeah, I read the synopsis.
After finishing it, I kinda miss how I got lost in it and felt disappointed when I had to put the book down. I love the not-too-abrupt ending. Just a simple "We jumped." and bam! the end!
I'm gonna start working on Nathan Fox : Traitor's Gold. From how Taco described it, it sure sounds yummy and good enough to eat read.
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Oh, I forgot to mention that day, Airhead : Being Nikki.

I started jumping up and down excitedly when I saw it in a bookstore. Haha! Who knew I was such an airhead?
Anyway, I read the first few chapters. I didn't even want to put it down. I managed to catch a glimpse of the last page. Just a glimpse so it won't spoil my ending. Sadly, the first few chapters were mostly about Nikki [a.k.a Em] modelling and her boyfriend, Brandon. No sign of Christopher. Aw. I checked the price and passed out.
Not getting it anytime soon so I hope we'll go there more often.. I swear the woman who helped me unwrap the book gave me the weirdest look like she didn't believe there were any unwrapped books on the shelves. My answer to her weirdo look was a huge cheesy smile. Then, I ran off.
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I can practically imagine Real World and New Divide in Transformers 2 already. Is anyone gonna watch?
Of course. My stomach flips whenever someone mentions it. I can't wait!
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why would you wanna break, a perfectly good heart?
Greek mythology.
I have always been interested in Greek mythology since I read the dictionary. Yes, read. I totally mean I went through one word by one word. Well.. I didn't get very far but under the Alphabet A, there were many names of Greek gods and goddesses. Since then, the interest in Greek mythology shot up and I began to browse through the entire dictionary, looking for names and constellations.
It's all really special to me, somehow.
I particularly like Zeus. And Triton, son of Poseidon. Heh-llo, we are talking about Little Mermaid here. And Aphrodite.. Well. You know.

Oh my God, today during the most lonesome and horribly boring hours of my life, I thought of becoming a classicist. Wow. I didn't even know there was such a thing but hey, we learn new things everyday and this is what I learned. Hellenist - a classicist whose specialization or preference is for Greek language and culture. Duuude. That's what I wanna be.
Okay, maybe not.
The last time I said I wanted to be an astronomer. After a while, I decided not to.
Ah well. It's still looking like an option now though. I would like to study French and Greek culture actually. Someone told me they'd rather learn math and become a mathematician or a find new theorems than learn language. To me, language beats math anytime. I'll be glad to finally kick complicated math goodbye and just stick to addition and subtraction. Which is besides the point but language is really important to me.
Okay, maybe I can be a linguist. Er, but I don't want to be. I just want to be able to speak, read and write the language which is probably asking for a lot but I believe I can master it.
Back to the point.
I don't doubt many things. I let my mind wander and I believe. I believe there are such things as aliens, werewolves, Greek gods, fairies, Peter Pan, flying horses and so many others. People scoff at me, say I'm childish, give me the 'you freak' look and sometimes laugh. But it doesn't matter what any of them believe. Because who is to say they don't exist? Science. Yeah. The truth and the logical explanation for many things but why can't you believe? Beats me.
Live in the moment and you'll know what I'm trying to say.
Why sleep when you only live once? - Gustav Graves in Die Another Day.
Ultimate randomness.
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By the way, what is the deal with.. everything?
My world's a bit flipped right now. Exactly like a pancake in a pan. It'll flip right back over soon and gawd, I don't know if I should be happy or sad then.
Like right now.
I'm picking writing over reading which is not my thing because I think I like reading more. I don't know. I couldn't say. And I flunked out. And strangely I'm feeling ridiculously confident that I will not flunk the next time. Maybe it's because I don't have the perfect excitement-boosting book to read right now. And maybe it's because I really hope to make people and myself proud.
Must be part of growing up, I think, I hope, I guess.
Who cares?
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EPITOME. EPIPHANY. EUPHORIA. ENCHILADA.
I never really adored the letter E but recently some E words have been catching my attention.
Again, ultimate randomness.
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Oh yeah. One more thing. I apologize if I've made anyone unhappy. Sorry. I don't know if I've provoked anyone but if it's you, sorryyy.
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Oh. Guess whose birthday it is todaaaay.

Adam? Naw.

David? Nooo.

Captain Jack's? Nope.

Chris Cron, The Cron? The one on the left? If you think so then you are correct!
Happy birthday, Chris.
Don't feel old. (:
Currently listening to Everytime by Simple Plan.
That's my song.
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Going to read more about the Twelve Olympians now.











