baby you’re beautiful, there’s nothing wrong with you
Today's confession: I'm in love with Adam Lambert's songs.

The man himself.
Whataya Want From Me is our vacation song. How cool is that? Love that song. And his live performance is real.
And I've discovered that Aftermath is a pretty good song too. Yay, Adam!
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Officially off tour. New record please. I hope they make more good music because they're real good. Toad said on their Twitter that they'll be back on tour sooner than we all think. Toad... just how soon is soon? We don't mind the wait for a new album, really.
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I watched Lady Gaga's Bad Romance video.
Now what do I think of it...?
Hmm.. over dramatized, as usual. Costumes, main idea and all.
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And aside from music that I listen to, I watched a Demi Lovato music video on TV today and my mom was absolutely disgusted with her screaming that people call singing. And what's with all the red lipstick? How old is she anyway? 35?
I also watched Party in the USA. It was striptease-worthy and I bet her daddy's way proud of her. I'm no fan of Miley at all. Well, make that all the Disney singers. A batch of screaming youngsters is just what we need in this generation. Way to go, Disney. Why can't we have more people like Debbie Gibson and Mandy Moore and Sara Bareilles?
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You must be wondering where we've been these few days. Well, we've been having a good time, that's for sure. Now we're back.
Or more precisely, I am back.
I haven't written anything worthy lately and somebody's been egging me to. So here it is. My worthy post of pictures and random captions because I'm sooooo interesting (note sarcasm). I don't really know what to say except for Christmas is around the corner and there's nothing to suggest the spirit of joy because moods have been dampened by stupid relatives who make life hard for others.
You know what? If life didn't have any boundaries or law, I would totally stand up, throw down my napkin and just tell any jerk in their faces to eff off. People can only take so much and if you're making life hard for everybody, someone needs to tell you that we're not your stepping stones and we don't do shoe-shining like Charlie Bucket in Charlie and the Chocolate Factory.
Weddings nowadays are just businesses for couples to earn profit from. How nice it must be to rip people off and drain their wallets dry while you celebrate your marriage and expect people to shower you with cold hard cash and gifts. Killing two birds with one stone?
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I hate being the only one who listens and cares. I'm not Superman. I can't swallow all of it down and I know it's hard for them too but it's always me the people run to whenever they have something to complain or shed tears about. I care and I want to listen and I want to help you but a triple dose of it everyday just makes me wish I was elsewhere.
And then there are people who are so wrapped in their own business and oblivious to the real world and the harsh truth of life. They just live life as if nothing is happening because they don't care and it doesn't concern them in any way. Go on, blast music, continue spending money like water, continue eating like there's no tomorrow, slice your wrists when you do realize that there is pain in this world, throw hissy fits when nothing pleases you, sulk in the corner, wait for someone to feed you with a silver spoon, ignore us. When you step out into the real world, you won't have a chance.
What do I care?
No one ever said life would be easy.
Where are those headphones when I need them???
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I'm no cynic, no, I got a heart of gold.
This line speaks the truth and only the truth about my personality.
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I bought new flip flops. Ya can't beat that.
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Woot. 900 posts in 1 year and two months. Something to celebrate about?
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I WANT TO WATCH SHERLOCK HOLMES!!!!!!!!!!
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add on, that I’m a coward
My blogging momentum has been swayed by the sweet temptation of books.

Yes. Another one of Susan Elizabeth Phillips's brilliant work of art. I honestly love her books and the Chicago Stars series even though the plots are almost similar. Somehow she always manages to write honest pieces of work which are believable and totally sweet. We even think along the same lines except she has actually written and published them out.
I love this book - Nobody's Baby But Mine. Dr Jane Darlington and Calvin Bonner. I love their smart-mouthed arguments and how Jane gets along so well with Annie. Not gonna spoil the story so I'm not going to do a full review but basically it's about Jane, who is a genius and a physicist, tricking Cal, the dumb jock, so that she can have a baby with a normal IQ without him knowing. When Cal, whom Jane assumed was stupid because of his pretty but supposedly dumb looks, finds out what she did, he becomes pissed and.. La-la-la. Go read the story yourself.
If any of you have read this, don't you think that Kevin Tucker is a cutie? I do.

The second one I'm done with is Match Me If You Can. Heath Champion (Heath D. Campione) and Annabelle Granger. Annabelle, if you read Natural Born Charmer, is Dean's best friend and this is the book where they first meet. Again, an amazing book. Very touching and full of emotion.
Heath (a.k.a The Python) is a sports agent and Annabelle is a matchmaker. She's been known to fail everything she does and her family do their best to convince her that she's a failure and she's better off becoming an accountant. Heath is 34 and looking for a wife. He has already hired a matchmaker, Portia Powers, to help him find a wife but does his best friend's wife, Molly a favor by seeing her friend who is also a matchmaker. That matchmaker would be Annabelle. And there begins the story of lots of ups and downs and convincing and heartache and also happiness. Read it if you want to know Heath's real name.
Have I mentioned that I think Pippi Tucker is really cute?
Although these two books have been incredibly wonderful and I had lots of Laugh-Out-Loud moments to myself, I still prefer Natural Born Charmer. Read my review on the main characters and whatnot. When I read what I wrote a few months back, I wonder where I found all those words.

Dean Robillard and Blue Bailey appeal more to me because: 1. Dean is cooler than the rest. 2. Blue is cute and fragile and her disastrous fashion is hilarious. 3. The story feels.. personal. 4. The house is Nobody's Baby But Mine sounds creepy. 5. The Portia and Bodie parts in Match Me If You Can don't raise any interest in me. Yeah..that's it.
I'm starting on This Heart of Mine which is Kevin Tucker's story but it's irritating me for some reason. I think one of the reasons is because her name is Molly Somerville. The name Molly brings up an image of a plain woman in my mind and that's not catchy at all. I don't know what made me relate that to the name but it's there. Another reason is because the story is almost the same as Nobody's Baby But Mine. I think I need something to drift the similarities apart and that something is taking a break from this book and reading something else. And.. Molly is Phoebe Calebow's sister and Phoebe does have her bitchy moments in Match Me If You Can.
I'm now getting an itchy obsession for somebody to draw Dean and Blue out on paper so that I can 'see' them. But I can't draw and people won't know how I'm imagining them in my head. The pain of not being an artist.

Oh, I just remembered that I didn't write about Heaven, Texas. Sweet old Gracie Snow and country bad boy Bobby Tom Denton. I didn't really read the whole thing because my eyes blurred after a while and I didn't pick it up after that. From what I've read, the shy, plain Gracie manages to grab the football star's attention and all I've got to say to beautiful girls is, "Plain but nice chicks are magnets too."
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Parlez vouz francais.
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Listening to Backstreet Boys - Masquerade. It sounds a bit like 3Oh!3's Starstrukk, I almost expect the Boys to whistle Whoohoo! :/
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I changed my mind. I want a Dean Robillard of my own !!
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hope is such a waste
"Let me pour out my deepest, darkest secrets: The way I am read from the outside never fails to get me into trouble."
No one knows I never meant to.
No one knows I didn't want to.
No one knows I must.
No one knows that I don't mean what I say.
No one knows I was just joking.
No one knows when I'm serious.
No one knows why I'm crying.
No one knows the limit of my patience.
No one knows that I care.
No one knows and this is the way I'll be read forever because I can't change who I am.
Nobody can truly change.
You were born to be.
I am born to be misread.
I was never born to rule.
I am not emo and never will be.
Slashing wrists and taking pills were never my thing up till now.
I forgive you for misunderstanding.
I forgive you for putting me in my place.
I will now accept it and from now on, speak when spoken to.
Because I am misread. -J
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I make the grand exit, flouncing away as if the world needed me.
I turned but found no one following after me, just vacant and repulsive stares.
I guess I deserved it. -J
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I cannot apologize for the other things I said but I apologize for all the anger you deserved to lash out at me. -J
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This guy is good.
Too bad no one gives poets much credit until they're dead.
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To summarize how I feel,

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Thank you for showing me all that you've seen. The ride was enjoyable. Now can I please step out? I'm suffocating. Thanks loads.
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feels just like i don’t try

Someone get me a guitar.
He doesn't deserve another. I mean, you can't even call him an amateur and I'm not calling myself a professional. He's been playing for, like, what? four months? and bam! He gets another as his birthday?! Who are you kidding, mister?
Not to mention, his dear faithful friends bought him a guitar tuner. How great is that?
And now he goes around boasting about his capo or whatever. As if he's the only one having guitar problems. Yeah, you don't have to attract attention like that because it's disgusting.
Now he owns two guitars when he's the only one playing. That's the opposite of us. We have only one guitar to share.
Oh, someone has to learn how to tune our guitar. And that would be me. If I have enough patience..
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Eddie Fisher, of One Republic.
Special request from T. I think she likes but I'm not sure about the results. Ha ha!
Naw, this is just an excuse to say something about One Republic. I've been rocking to Everybody Loves Me the whole day and it's getting too addictive.
I still have to get their album, Waking Up.
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Movember is over.
Nick Wheeler shaved and he looks better.
I can't find a fresh picture of him but this will do.
Since it's her favorite picture.
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Mike Kennerty for all the Mike lovers.
You know who you are.
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Do you know it's almost Christmas time?
Time to bring out your Christmas trees and string of colorful lights.
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Someone get me a new pair of headphones.
Lots to learn this month.
to scared to return your calls
A few questions you haven't asked yourself today:
- Why isn't anybody rolling out the red carpet for you?
- Why doesn't anybody cook what you want all the time?
- Why do idiots always get the attention?
- Do you want that kind of attention? HELL NO.
- Do you love yourself?
- Do you ever feel like running away from reality sometimes?
- Why are screw ups so easy to find? Maybe because they dominate 70% of our population.
- Why do people like to hit the effing keyboard really hard when they're angry? (I effing hate that and now that I've said this, many people will go to the extend to irritate me by doing just that. Screw them
) - Why do old folks refuse to listen to suggestions?
- Why are people so effing stuck up, they pretend that they're the king?
- Why do people take so long to get over things?
- Why do people never understand that a mistake repeated over a million times is less likely to be forgiven and forgotten?
- Why do others never step into your shoes for even just a second?
- Is it because they're to effing proud?
- Or is it because they're too dumb to do that?
- Or maybe it's because, I don't know, they don't have a heart?
- Why do people never acknowledge their own mistakes? Especially older folks who think that they've got it all right. NOT.
- Why can't people shut their effing mouths and just be grateful for what they have?
- Why can't people see that what they say might affect others emotionally and psychologically? (Maybe it's because they've never understood themselves very well. Well, I feel SORRY for you them.)
- Why do people judge things so, so, so easily?
- Why can't people expand their view and opinions on things? NOT EVERYTHING can be the God damn same. That would make this world boring as hell.
- Why can't they accept other people's opinions?
- Why do men think that they are the king of the house? Do men think that they're more superior than women???
- Why do the God damned 'KINGS' of the houses like to enforce violence and inflict pain on minors (aka family)?
- Why do the hurt family not want to do anything about it? Is it because they can't?
- Why do people NOT want to acknowledge their feelings? (PLEASE, for the love of anyone and not only God, I SAW you shedding tears for the same person TWICE and they were for very different reasons.)
- Why do people like to think that kids don't know shit?
- Why do people not want to believe others when they say(?) that they do?
- Why do people like to jump to conclusions?
- I just realized: Why do many of us think with our asses at the worst times?
- Why is it that we find it so easy to remember the bad and forget the good? Always wanted to know the answer.
- Why is it that adults don't respect what younger people have to say? Even if profanities are included in what the younger generation have to say, can't you effing stop to think about it? Oh, come on, lame asses, you know this is you.
- Which leads to: why do adults think that know it all and what other children have to say is NOT important?
- Why do people like to SIGH about a lot of things? I HATE the sound of people sighing because it irritates and depresses me.
- Why can't people just put on a smile and be happy for even just a minute?
- Why are people so judgmental when it comes to things that they don't even KNOW about?
- Why do people like to look back at their mistakes and keep pointing it out even after it's done and you know there's nothing you can do about except for correcting it in the future?
- Why do people judge others by their sexuality?
- Why do people start fights/arguments out of nothing at all?
- Why don't people just love and appreciate their HAPPY families?
- Why do you HATE people who are destructive and violent?
- Why do you HATE the people who forgive the people who are destructive and violent?
- Why do people expect others to change?
- Why do people ignore other people's mistakes?
- Why do people like to find fault with others?
- Why do you always get bullied into doing things you don't LIKE?
- Why do you always feel sorry for others and help them out when you fully know that they're not going express any gratitude or vote for you after that? Yeah, it sucks balls like that.
- Why do humans have a guilty conscience? I have a huge one and that often makes me ask myself the two questions above this one.
- Why are you so dumb to not have done anything about all this?
- And the last one: Why don't you effing listen to music and block out all that ruckus you don't want to hear when they're making noise? I've got the answer: Because they're shouting so loud, you can even hear when your music volume is turned up to the max.
Have you asked yourself all this today? Because I already have and I don't know all the answers. Wanna give it a try?
Advice:
When you're feeling utterly sadistic and you ask yourself most of these questions, I suggest you head on the FML.com and see how screwed up other people's lives are. I don't like reading all that but I get a kick out of it when my life is pouring itself down the sewage.
I think all those who are in the same category most of the time, should just find someone else who is the opposite of them so that they don't turn up as screwed up as they are.
Whaddya know? I'm about to hit the 1000 word hit count and it's all because of 50 questions you should ask yourself.
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I DO NOT THINK THAT I'M VERY SMART but on some days when I say smart things, all of them ignore me. Oh well. Don't say I never warned you.
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By the way, don't even bother replying to me about this post and don't even think about asking me to explain myself. You've read it. Whether you like the truth or not, too bad. Maybe it's time you stopped acting like a regretting idiot and actually step out of that misery cloud you've been hiding in for years. Don't even bother discussing this with someone else because unless you have no guilty conscience, this is a WAKE UP CALL.
Stupid miserable assholes.
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P.S: If you want to use my 50 questions you should ask yourself, remember to link it and mention that it's ours. Not yours, cupcakes.
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I'mma listen to Time For Miracles now.
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please don’t dwell on it, cause I didn’t mean it


or


An Interview with Johnny Depp.
Though Johnny tends to stutter a little, his answers are practical and he doesn't make unnecessary jokes. He's also always happy to talk about his family and you can see that that's what's most important to him. This is an example of a relaxed and confident manner. He doesn't, like, hunch over and laugh to himself before giving a silly answer.
Interview with Robert Pattinson.
Why the hell is Robert always acting like a wussy? His jokes are lame (no one else is laughing but himself), his behavior is close to vomit-inducing so why are all the girls after him? And he's always got the hand-through-hair thing going on which is so over because it's not cute and there isn't any hair that his hand is running through. Oh, have I mentioned that he doesn't look anyone in the eye when he's talking. Check out the Jimmy Kimmel interview. He's like hunched over, mumbling and everything. So.. unprofessional.
What do you say? Johnny Depp or Robert Pattinson?
I'm not even saying that Johnny Depp is handsome but he's waaaaay better than Robert Pattinson. Johnny is waaaaay cleverer than Robert though. Johnny really acts out his part and that is all the credit he needs to be given because isn't that what acting is all about? If putting your heart and soul into becoming your character and actually being good at it is not what it takes to be an actor, then we can all be actors and actresses.
Not being biased but I still go with Johnny Depp no matter what day or time or year. You can even give me George Clooney or Matt Damon any day. Robert sucks and he doesn't deserve any award that has to do with looks or achievement. His performance in New Moon sucked balls so if he wants to keep his acting career afloat after the Twilight craze has died down, he's gotta work his ass off and stop acting like a ninny.
Oh, and Johnny has got more style. Robert's closet is lame.
Peace.
You guys who are so full of Robert, can just stick to that boring piece of I don't even know what to call him.
P.S: DON'T watch New Moon in the cinemas if you know what's good for your wallet. Even if your girlfriend drags you to the cinema, PROTEST. It's not worth wasting 10 bucks and popcorn on. You'll probably just vomit into your popcorn because of the horrible shit acting and cranky, corny script. 1 out of 10 ratings from people all over. This is how you know it's rubbish which you can chuck into your storeroom and never look at it again.
P.S.S: Johnny looks young for his age. Robert looks older than his age.
P.S.S.S: Pirates 4?!? Heehee.
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and I hope you feel the same
So.. has anyone heard about the Justin Bieber incident because I have, thanks to Ryan Seacrest. You can follow him on Twitter @RyanSeacrest. Anyhoo, people got injured and trampled over and arrested because of his 'popularity'. Gawd. Apparently a security guard was trampled to death. Poor guy. And all this because of some puny 15 year old boy who can't freaking sing. I feel sorry for y'all who got hurt out there but well, you all love him so what can I say?
And the Miley Cyrus bus accident, killing 1 and injuring 9? Hell, what is up with these teen stars and the news related to them????? Weird shit that you don't see happening any day. Anyway, my condolences and get well soons to those people. Oh, by the way, I watched the trailer for 'The Last Song' on RyanSeacrest.com because I happened to be scrolling by and I don't do that very often, and it's a movie adapted from one of Nicholas Sparks's books. And guess who is the main character? Oh, just freaking piece of crap Miley Cyrus who can't act or sing for peanuts. Yeah, you know how that's gonna turn out but people love people who have no talent. Again, what else can I say?
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Apart from all that sickening and saddening teen star news, this picture made my day:

Yes, that would be Nick Wheeler. The one who gave me a nightmare last night. I dreamed that he was obsessing over this mean girl and I was ignored. When I woke up, I found out that it was just a dream. Gah. Thank God.
Flip Flop Boy. Hardly. (:
Okay.. let me just paw through my files and see what picture I come up with so that I can write something interesting.

I swear my dog smiles exactly like this!! Okay, maybe this is not a smile. Let me find the right picture. Cute hat, Ty. This is not the hat that I was talking about on Twitter, if you're wondering. Do follow us @spuddybuddies.

Yeah, like this. The sideways smile. Oh, look, Jimmy is behind. Their frowning manager. Just kidding. Jimmy's really cool. How do I know this? Because.. it's a secret. Okay, maybe not but I'm not telling.
Video of the day:
Sebastien Lefebvre - I Fall For You
Going off now.
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i can take a few tears now and then
Every time I read my old friends' blogs, I have to stop and think about my own life.
It's like they have this huge social calendar and sooooo many things are going on in their lives and they manage to juggle all their activities and parties and school and whatever the heck they have in their lives.
On the other hand, I have never gone to a party let alone huge social gathering because I am not the type. I mean, I would go to a party and everything only I would never go with these friends of mine. It's so hard to find real friends nowadays and I'm pretty sure only 2% of true friends exist in this world. Maybe I'm not a true friend because I've never had to be a true friend to any of my friends. Not being an ass here but it's true - they suck.
Those old friends have become ----s and 'models' and supposedly famous people (I don't think they're famous because I've never heard of them). They talk like upper-class-too-good-to-be-seen-with-you kind of people and diss the people who are not in their league. They are accomplished and smart and know their way around unlike 'commoners' like me.
I don't know what you think a commoner is but I am the kind of person who hasn't done any major achievement in life and will most probably get a decent job and be a decent person for the rest of their lives. I like staying at home and reading and blogging and indoor activities. I am fine with decent and reasonably priced clothes and food and I can live without bitching about people to other people. I don't do anything exotic or reckless like belly dancing or skydiving or smoking or anything. I prefer to be neither in or out of the spotlight. I'm a nerd and an outcast.
Are any of you like that? Do you feel dwarfed or have second thoughts about yourself when you see how action packed other peoples' lives are?
I love my life although some changes could be made to make it more bearable and I would not trade a day in my life to be in my friends' shoes for even an hour. But sometimes they overwhelm me with all their style?
Sometimes the thought, 'Gee, I sound kinda boring compared to them' enters my mind. Seriously, what am I thinking? That I want to be like them? No way, Jose. I love being myself. End of story.
Just saying.
This post has nothing to do with anything. I'm just letting my thoughts loose.
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I HATE the song Use Somebody by Kings of Leon. Horrible voice and stupid song.
Highly NOT recommended.
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I'm in love with Sierra's Song!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I love The All American Rejects. They complete most of me.
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