Spuddy Buddies

my memory plays our tune

It is so weird how I'm talking more and more about the things I never used to care much about. Yesterday, my girlfriends and I talked about guys. Guys. Oh my god. Me? That's like, so not me. I've always been sort of a social outcast in school. I mean I have friends, some of them jocks, some of them cheerleaders, some of them geeks, some of them just fun-loving but still an outcast.

Nobody knows who I am and you can tell by the way the cool kids give me that 'I've seen her but where have I seen her before' look when they see me outside of school. I'm so vague, I'm almost invisible. How cool is that? I've never minded being an unpopular kid in school because it's pretty beneficial. I get to know everything about everyone else without anyone even knowing who I am.

Back to the point. I just realized that I didn't have a lot of guy friends until recently. When I was in preschool, there was only one boy in the class. And all the girls had a crush on him. Up till high school, I had a few guy friends here and there but when I moved to a different school, somehow I lost track of all my friends.

And let me just tell you that I'm not exactly the girliest of girls. I rather like being one of the boys. I never understood the excitement of talking about girly things like dancing, dieting, clothes and makeup and boys. Not to say that I like talking about violence and football and whatnot with boys but somehow they're easier to talk to. When I talk to girls and express my disinterest in their topics, they give me the 'what is wrong with you?' look. Also another reason why I'm never invited to parties. Not that I'd want to go, really.

Anyways, my girlfriend likes this guy in my class. She thinks he's cute and everything and coincidentally, I've come to know him this year (I know almost everyone in school because I'm observant) and he's become sort of a good friend. He's really funny and a good sport and also pretty generous and he's just been suspended at school for a really stupid reason and I'm gonna miss all his stupid jokes and crazy behavior. But the point is, my girlfriend's been talking to me about crushing on him.

How weird. And she's asking me to ask if he's really with some other girl. I've never done anything like that before. I mean, sure there's always gossip about who's going out with who but somehow I'm involved in her little (or big) crush on him. She told me that he's told her that she'd look pretty with long hair and that he'd miss her and I would so totally believe that if it weren't for the fact that I know he's a joker.

He likes fooling around and I'm afraid my girlfriend has been taking him a little bit tooooo seriously. He's generally nice to everyone but somehow she thinks that he's only nice to her. D'you think that he should stop sending the wrong messages or whether she should stop thinking of them as a sign? I have no intentions of involving myself in him, her and his unofficial girlfriend but with her calling me just to find out about what's new with him, I'm starting to feel... irked.

Boys. Ugh. And girls. Double ugh.

I'm perfectly fine with not liking anyone at school. I'm perfectly fine with my seat on the bleachers, just watching school gossip happen. Things get too messy.

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