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Last guitar lesson for this month.

Another wasted effort of practicing. I beginning to think that practicing is just a waste of time.

I'm getting really worried about my C chord..? It isn't working very well. Newt keeps shifting my fingers for me. God, I hate that because my whole hand will become stiff and unnatural. Why? Because my wrist isn't bending the right way? Because my stupid fingers aren't as long as his? Because my fingers will have terribly deep lines in them if I press hard enough?

I was okay before that. And no. This isn't about how I become worse if I skip a few days of practicing. Maybe because strumming blocks the whole dead string sound out. Now, we're learning plucking for a while. So the book says. Maybe because I was being such a smartypants back then. Whatever..

How many weeks of adjusting my fingers and acting like I don't practice will there be? I just hate it. I hate it so much. I totally dislike plucking. I don't like it as much as strumming. Call me a sore loser or whatever you call it. This challenge is probably the hardest. I left long fingernails for no reason.

My fingers are starting to look like Newt's because some skin tore. They're pink and feel like the first time I pressed the strings. They feel numb... The lines were unusually deep today. Didn't feel exactly right. My wrist hurts.

No matter how many times I adjusted my fingers and pressed hard, same answer. I feel like an idiot. Like Daniel Craig as James Bond in Casino Royale when he was trying to give the Bond girl a CPR. Didn't work out.

Haha. I know, I know what everyone will say. They'll tell me to practice harder and more. They'll be like in-your-face for not practicing for a few days in a row. Which leads them to congratulating me for my stupidity.

I honestly, seriously feel like giving up after today. Wasted effort hurts, you know.

Okay, whatever. Just expressing my feelings about today. Don't call me emo or loser or tard then.